You failed Part 2 – Lonely Days & Sleepless Nights

FROM: Curlie
Date: 09/30/08 (started)
TITEL: You failed Part 2 – Lonely Days & Sleepless Nights
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RATING: R
KATEGORIE: JS/K Slash, Angst
SPOILER: Season 3 (Paper Clip, Apocrypha), Season 6 (One Son)
DISCLAIMER: They're still not mine...
FEEDBACK: molly_1013@hotmail.com

Jeffrey still looked at him, while Alex crossed the room to finally reach his bed side to touch his sweaty and warm cheek. A short “I thought I've lost you, you Idiot...” - look escaped his eyes, when their ones met before he leaned down to rest his lips on the spot where his hand was before. Alex didn't say anything but both knew, that this was his way to show him how glad he was about the survival of his partner. When he straightened himself again, his eyes were locked on Jeffreys, reading in his eyes what happened to him and silently cursed himself that he couldn't prevent it. Alex should have known it better what happens if you fail in the eyes of the Cigarette Smoking Man... When you grow to a bigger treat than he expected. Alex himself almost got send to hell and suffered, more than once because of that powerful old man.
He hated those powerless situations, like the one Alex was actually in. They made him thoughtful, even if he didn't want to think about his own life. He wanted to be... how did Jeffrey called it, only a few hours back... He wanted to be his own great man, not someone like Mulder was. A man, who was always thinking about what's right or wrong. Those thoughts were too risky in the business Alex was caught in now for too many years of his life. Which was not only part of his life but already part of himself.

~tbc when I'm awake again~

„You should rest...“ He said to Jeffrey, when he finally looked back up again. Jeffrey nodded carefully and closed his eyes again after Alex signed him that he'd stay and watch over him. His eyes fell unbelievable heavy, so that he feared not to wake up again if he'd follow his partners order. Jeffrey feared to go back to that place, where he met his mother only a few hours back but now he knew that Alex wouldn't allow him to. He finally drifted into a healing sleep.

When he was sure that Jeffrey was sleeping deep enough, Alex carefully got up from the bed and walked over to the window to check the surrounding. Slowly he lifted his right arm to touch the curtain, pulling it away to look outside into the darkness. The air was clean, he thought and walked back over to the chair that was standing on the other side of the room. Only slowly he pealed himself out of his jacket, because of his prosthetic. He clenched his teeth again, when his eyes wandered down at the part of his arm where it met his own skin. Alex barely looked at his left side since he'd lost his arm in the woods of Tunguska. Even if the physical wound already been healed, the mental one was still too fresh even that two years already had been past by. The memories of that one night in the woods haunted him still every night and he was almost glad that his new found attention in the man that was laying there sleeping was keeping him distracted enough from those nightmares..